I sooo don't want to write this post.
I am a fraud. I have spent several days this week eating foods that are not healthy for me. I was down 28 pounds according to the weight loss place, and now I am only down 25.
I am not sure why I have fallen off the wagon this week. I certainly did TRY, but when temptation came my way, I totally, and without hesitation, gave in. I wanted to write a highly motivating and revealing post about how I figured everything out. But I can't because I didn't.
Maybe it had something to do with the fact that I was feeling sooo skinny, but then I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and noticed that I am still fat. Maybe it's because when one of my students asked me how much I lost and I told him, another student said, "Then why are you still chubby?" Maybe it's because i have been working my BUTT off to lose weight, but I am still fat. After all of that work. I. am. still. fat.
Ok, so i lost 25 pounds. That is 1/4 of the 100 pounds I need to lose. But I am still over 200 pounds. Maybe I am losing the heart and the resolve it takes to lose weight.
Recently, I told one of my counselors of my trouble passing up the delicious peanut M&M's that my secret pal gave me. He told me these words: "We can't help you." This made me cry. Why am I going to these people if they can't help me? Am I hopeless???
But then I thought about it and I think I know what he meant. My fancy diet place can't follow me around and slap my hand when I reach for the microwave popcorn. They can't be there to talk me out of eating that delicious peanut butter cookie. What they CAN do, is look at what I wrote on my food journal. They CAN give me ideas for making my diet easier and more convenient. They CAN help me see patterns and give me suggestions, they can even put me on an "Omit and Flush" designed to get rid of that occasional accidental bad choice. But, they just CAN'T do it for me. This is a cruel thing to learn. It broke my heart.
So now, it's time for me to quit putting faith in my fancy diet program, and start taking care of myself. They CAN'T do it for me, but I CAN. and I WILL. With their help and with God's help, I WILL.
Thanks for sticking with me. I will try not to be a fraud anymore.
Until next time!
Weight Loss Ticker
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Cooking Chicken Late at Night
IT's 10:27 at night. Usually, at this hour, I am sleeping like a log. But! Tonight I am cooking chicken. You see, I am learning that I have to be prepared in order to eat healthy. Unfotunately, I ate the last of my pre-cooked tilapia today for lunch, and I am out of pre-cooked chicken, too!! So here is how I prepare and freeze chicken which I try to always have on hand.
Every time I cook chicken I try to do something a little different because i eat a LOT of chicken and I don't wanna get sick of it.
Tonight's recipe:
Well, this is not officially a recipe, just kind of a "how to".
I started by buying 2 packages of chicken breast tenders a few weeks ago. Then I froze it. Tonight, when I came home from work I stuck the chicken in the microwave and defrosted it. (I forgot to put it in the fridge ahead of time.) (Which makes me wonder, how do absent-minded people EVER lose weight??? Is there any hope for me???)
Anyway, while the chicken was defrosting, I multi-tasked. I preheated the oven to 350 degrees and checked Facebook. All at the same time!!! I put the chicken in a baking dish, sprayed it with butter-flavored Pam, and sprinkled a nice layer of ground red peppers on there. I put it all in the oven and set the timer for 30 minutes. VOILA! The chicken was almost done. So i set the timer for 10 more minutes and VOILA! It was finally done.
That's the basic recipe.
Sometimes I put different types of Mrs. Dash on my chicken instead of the red pepper. I like the Onion and Herb, and the Extra Spicey varieties of Mrs. Dash. But i never add salt!! My blood pressure is nice and low and I'd like to keep it that way. Besides, too much salt causes bloating and water retention. Ick.
While I write this, I am multi-tasking AGAIN!! This is amazing for me. I am multi-tasking more than once, in ONE night, AND at 10:30 at night when I am exhausted!! Wow!!
I am blogging and letting the chicken cool all at the same time!!
Next, I will divide the chicken into about 6 oz portions, roughly 3 tenders a serving, put the portions in baggies, and place them in the freezer. This provides a perfect serving of protein for my lunches, or for dinners too, sometimes. I usually take one baggie out of the freezer in the morning and pack it in my lunch box with a couple of fruits, a veggie of some sort, and some melba toast or Akmak crackers. I can usually get about 10 portions from 2 packages of chicken breast tenders. By the way, if you don't know how much is 6 ounces, weigh it (raw). I had to do this several times before I could finally "eyeball" six ounces of chicken.
So! That's basically how I cook chicken. Do you have any other fat-free, salt-free chicken recipes to share? I would love to hear them!! Please share!!
Good night! I am off to put chicken in baggies and then go to BED!!! HUGS!!!!
Every time I cook chicken I try to do something a little different because i eat a LOT of chicken and I don't wanna get sick of it.
Tonight's recipe:
Well, this is not officially a recipe, just kind of a "how to".
I started by buying 2 packages of chicken breast tenders a few weeks ago. Then I froze it. Tonight, when I came home from work I stuck the chicken in the microwave and defrosted it. (I forgot to put it in the fridge ahead of time.) (Which makes me wonder, how do absent-minded people EVER lose weight??? Is there any hope for me???)
Anyway, while the chicken was defrosting, I multi-tasked. I preheated the oven to 350 degrees and checked Facebook. All at the same time!!! I put the chicken in a baking dish, sprayed it with butter-flavored Pam, and sprinkled a nice layer of ground red peppers on there. I put it all in the oven and set the timer for 30 minutes. VOILA! The chicken was almost done. So i set the timer for 10 more minutes and VOILA! It was finally done.
That's the basic recipe.
Sometimes I put different types of Mrs. Dash on my chicken instead of the red pepper. I like the Onion and Herb, and the Extra Spicey varieties of Mrs. Dash. But i never add salt!! My blood pressure is nice and low and I'd like to keep it that way. Besides, too much salt causes bloating and water retention. Ick.
While I write this, I am multi-tasking AGAIN!! This is amazing for me. I am multi-tasking more than once, in ONE night, AND at 10:30 at night when I am exhausted!! Wow!!
I am blogging and letting the chicken cool all at the same time!!
Next, I will divide the chicken into about 6 oz portions, roughly 3 tenders a serving, put the portions in baggies, and place them in the freezer. This provides a perfect serving of protein for my lunches, or for dinners too, sometimes. I usually take one baggie out of the freezer in the morning and pack it in my lunch box with a couple of fruits, a veggie of some sort, and some melba toast or Akmak crackers. I can usually get about 10 portions from 2 packages of chicken breast tenders. By the way, if you don't know how much is 6 ounces, weigh it (raw). I had to do this several times before I could finally "eyeball" six ounces of chicken.
So! That's basically how I cook chicken. Do you have any other fat-free, salt-free chicken recipes to share? I would love to hear them!! Please share!!
Good night! I am off to put chicken in baggies and then go to BED!!! HUGS!!!!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Out with the Old
Out with the old, and I am not talking about my husband who had a birthday last month. ;-)
I am talking about clothes. I have now lost 26 pounds and needed to purge my fat clothes, big time. This was kind of a scary task! Letting go of my fat clothes was very final. I will NEVER be 100 pounds overweight again. EVER. But there were sooo many clothes! I filled up 3 large black garbage bags! Some of them had hardly been worn.
For YEARS I have had several boxes of too small clothes on a shelf in my closet. Today I tried on every single item in those boxes. I was amazed at everything that fit!! Now several times as I tried on piece after piece, I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I haven't fit into these clothes for a very long time. Some of the items were newer, purchased the last time I lost some weight. Some of them had never been worn because I bought them right before I started gaining back that weight. But NEVER have I been able to wear so many of them, until today.
So today was a big day for me. I purged all of my winter clothes that are too big, and just kept a very few things that still fit. This makes me nervous because some of those self doubting thoughts crossed my mind, like, "What if you are fat next winter? What are you gonna wear?" But I kept focused. The few winter clothes that I kept got put into boxes and went back up on the shelf. Then I went through all of last summer's clothes and got rid of lots of them that are now too big. That felt great going through those things that I had worn, and in some cases, outworn, and throwing them in the big black bags!! Finally, i went through all of the boxes of too small clothes. Several weeks ago, after I lost 15 pounds I had gone through these boxes and was only able to find a couple of shirts that I could wear. This time was a different story. I have a whole new wardrobe!!!
I don't know what the future holds for me and my wardrobe. I am on Spring Break this week. What will it be like to wear completely different clothes to work every day? Will I be able to put together outfits? I am kind of nervous about that, but I will keep you posted. Deep down inside I can't wait for the adventure!!!
I am talking about clothes. I have now lost 26 pounds and needed to purge my fat clothes, big time. This was kind of a scary task! Letting go of my fat clothes was very final. I will NEVER be 100 pounds overweight again. EVER. But there were sooo many clothes! I filled up 3 large black garbage bags! Some of them had hardly been worn.
For YEARS I have had several boxes of too small clothes on a shelf in my closet. Today I tried on every single item in those boxes. I was amazed at everything that fit!! Now several times as I tried on piece after piece, I had tears rolling down my cheeks. I haven't fit into these clothes for a very long time. Some of the items were newer, purchased the last time I lost some weight. Some of them had never been worn because I bought them right before I started gaining back that weight. But NEVER have I been able to wear so many of them, until today.
So today was a big day for me. I purged all of my winter clothes that are too big, and just kept a very few things that still fit. This makes me nervous because some of those self doubting thoughts crossed my mind, like, "What if you are fat next winter? What are you gonna wear?" But I kept focused. The few winter clothes that I kept got put into boxes and went back up on the shelf. Then I went through all of last summer's clothes and got rid of lots of them that are now too big. That felt great going through those things that I had worn, and in some cases, outworn, and throwing them in the big black bags!! Finally, i went through all of the boxes of too small clothes. Several weeks ago, after I lost 15 pounds I had gone through these boxes and was only able to find a couple of shirts that I could wear. This time was a different story. I have a whole new wardrobe!!!
I don't know what the future holds for me and my wardrobe. I am on Spring Break this week. What will it be like to wear completely different clothes to work every day? Will I be able to put together outfits? I am kind of nervous about that, but I will keep you posted. Deep down inside I can't wait for the adventure!!!
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